.when we become one.

i love music.

what an understatement.

so last night before i crashed, i did something i haven't done in a long time. when i lived at home i couldn't fall asleep unless i had music playing. when i came to OU i used to have to wear my headphones to fall asleep, as to not to disturb liz. i'm sure she would've been fine with me playing music had i asked, but i didn't know her that well at the time and didn't want to be difficult.

so after about a quarter i stopped needing the music to go to sleep. except every once in a while when i was homesick or having a rough time, but for the most part, i got over it.

even now that i finally have my own room again, i'm still out of the habit. until last night. right before i crashed i decided i needed to have the music on. my computer's been working a little better and my parents had just got me new speakers for christmas.

i was a little upset and said what the hell. but i didn't want some random-ass mix of tunes. but i was also exhausted and didn't feel like carefully combing through my 5000+ song list. what i did was just scrolled real quick through my itunes and highlighted all the songs that jumped out at me, then i labeled the playlist "i feel like."

this list is a complex measure of everything i was and am feeling at these precise moments. again, i'm going to share, because i feel the need to. there's no special order, they're just alphabetical by song.

the list was put together at random and on instinct. pure.

i love music.

--- i feel like ---
23 - jimmy eat world
a story about a girl - our lady peace
all at once - the fray
beating hearts baby - head automatica
blue and yellow - the used
bonnie tyler shakedown...24k - hellogoodbye
brace - augustana
broken - seether (ft. amy lee)
buried alive by love - him
burn - alkaline trio
cemetery drive - my chemical romance
clumsy - our lady peace
days of the pheonix - afi
demolition lovers - my chemical romance
do it for me now - angels & airwaves
emily - from first to last
endlessly, she said - afi
excuse me mr. - no doubt
the fantasy - 30 seconds to mars
the first single - the format
the fragile - nine inch nails
the gift - angels & airwaves
here's everything i've always wanted to say - jamisonparker
hero/heroine - boys like girls
honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us - my chemical romance
how to save a life - the fray
i'm ready - jack's mannequin
i can't take it - tegan and sara
if you believe - our lady peace
iris (acoustic ver.) - goo goo dolls
the last sunrise - aiden
lazy eye - silversun pickups
lindsay quit lollygagging - chiodos
love song - anberlin
the love song - marilyn manson
makedamnsure - taking back sunday
morningstar - afi
munich - editors
nightingale - saves the day
not enough - our lady peace
numb/encore - linkin park and jay-z
pain - jimmy eat world
potato girl - our lady peace
right here in my arms - him
so contagious - acceptance
so much - the spill canvas
sorry - our lady peace
stay where i can see you - the starting line
the suffering - coheed & cambria
take cover - acceptance
this is how i disappear- my chemical romance
tolovesomebody - billy corgan
we're in this together - nine inch nails
what's said is done - scary kids scaring kids

enjoy.


xoxo.m