.the night will go as follows.

i don't like nights like this. laying in bed with the covers pulled tight just willing myself to sleep. because there wasn't enough time. because for any type of communication we have to rely on a machine, that too many times isn't reliable at all.

i can't sleep without you.

and more than ever i need to. just to get my mind off the fact that the sheets directly behind me aren't imprinted with you. that the sole source of warmth comes only from my hands, my legs rubbing against each other, and the three layers of sheets and blankets i've tucked around myself.

the dreams that will come will save me from these moments, but when i need them, they seem to come slower than ever.

i know that one day all of these nights will be worth it. but i can't use that as comfort, because it's not real. i can't countdown to something that isn't real. i just need to make this moment better. and the everlasting problem is i don't know how. it's just this cycle of irrational fears and thoughts. they're uncharactaristic for me, but maybe that's just because i've never had anything in my life that means so much to me. that i wanted more than anything to preserve, and more than anything to make real.

if you only knew what you mean to me. my words always seem to fail in my attempt to make you know the extent.

i guess i just have to take comfort in the fact that the pain is there for a reason. pain is always there to tell us something. whether it's to take your hand off the boiling pot, or just to keep holding on because it's worth it.

the fact that you can cause me pain from thousands of miles away means something. and it can only mean one thing. and i'll never let that go.

but it'd just be easier if i could avoid nights like this. or at least be ready for them.


xoxo.m

.life feels like a kiss on the mouth.

since i'm back in school i can't promise that i'll keep this blog regularly updated, but i'll try my best. you know, as much as i say i've grown/am quickly growing out of athens. i know i'll miss it when i'm gone. it really is a unique place. it has tons of character. sometimes it reminds me of a small slice of new york city (minus the really tall buildings.)

i'm going to enjoy the time that is left here. which is not much at all.

this quarter's going to be crazy, of course. but i like it that way. i'm working really hard on not procrastinating and keeping up with things a little better so i don't feel so burnt out by the end.
- Online Journalism Seminar
- Graphics of Communication
- Middle East History 1800-present
- Myth & Symbolism

i absolutely love all my classes thus far, with the exception of graphics. at least leah and i have that class together, so we can sit towards the back and write notes to each other about how pittman reminds us of george bush (and therefore makes us want to kick his face in), how he doesn't know what he's saying and half the time seems like he's just pulling stuff out of his ass, and silently (and sometimes not so silently) chuckling at how all the freshman and sophomores in the room are writing down his every word.

okay, that seems really mean of us, i know. but the george bush thing, we just can't help. he really doesn't know what he's talking about - seriously, once you pretend like you know the complete history of Speakeasy, how it started as a print publication then switched to the internet because it was too expensive* - your credibility, especially with me, declines fast. and don't get me wrong, both leah and i are neurotic about note-taking, so we're not making fun of the studiousness (in fact, it's a very good thing) but of what they are writing. i feel bad. i feel like i should stand up in class and say, "listen to what he's saying, but don't put that much stock or effort into it, please."

so besides graphics, everything's great. the seminar class is mostly talking. and i'm friends with like, half the people in there, so it's cool. the only thing that will suck is the 12-page term paper. but that's weeks away! then there's mid-east history, and despite liz's warnings about the professor, i'm braving it anyway. the topic's so interesting. i love learning about that region because it's something most people know nothing about. plus it provided me with an idea for a story/experiment, which excites me.

then there's myth & symbolism. well, what can you say about that besides it's just fucking cool. i've been eyeing this class since fall quarter freshman year. at the time i balked at that it was a 400-level class and that you had to have three religion classes under your belt before you could take it. but here i am. and not only that, i'm taking it with one of my favorite professors. ever. not to mention i have a teacher-crush on him. now, if you know me, i'm not one to have teacher-crushes. but leave it to me to have a teacher-crush on a skinny, nerdy religion professor. i think i'm going to start recording his lectures as well. he says so many things that are just priceless that i always want to remember and never do.

"sippy cups are the sign of the infantilization of all of us. i firmly believe that. i hate sippy cups."
-- alex keefe

don't tell me you wouldn't be riveted by someone who threw out a line like that during a lecture.

aaaaanyway. i guess i'll be done rambling for now. the one really bad thing about having a history and a religion class in one quarter is the ridiculous amount of reading that comes with it.

make sure you check out speakeasy. and keep your eye on it, there's some exciting things that are going to be happening real soon ;)

and if you get a chance, listen to "kiss on the mouth" by our lady peace and "we are always searching" by i am ghost.

i'm obsessing.

ps. i can't wait for debbie does disco this thursday. with my fiance/dancing partner. rock it.


xoxo.m

*in case you didn't pick up on the sarcasm, Speakeasy never was a print publication, and for that matter was never even concieved as one

.don't forget to breathe.

sometimes i have trouble breathing.


xoxo.m

.when we become one.

i love music.

what an understatement.

so last night before i crashed, i did something i haven't done in a long time. when i lived at home i couldn't fall asleep unless i had music playing. when i came to OU i used to have to wear my headphones to fall asleep, as to not to disturb liz. i'm sure she would've been fine with me playing music had i asked, but i didn't know her that well at the time and didn't want to be difficult.

so after about a quarter i stopped needing the music to go to sleep. except every once in a while when i was homesick or having a rough time, but for the most part, i got over it.

even now that i finally have my own room again, i'm still out of the habit. until last night. right before i crashed i decided i needed to have the music on. my computer's been working a little better and my parents had just got me new speakers for christmas.

i was a little upset and said what the hell. but i didn't want some random-ass mix of tunes. but i was also exhausted and didn't feel like carefully combing through my 5000+ song list. what i did was just scrolled real quick through my itunes and highlighted all the songs that jumped out at me, then i labeled the playlist "i feel like."

this list is a complex measure of everything i was and am feeling at these precise moments. again, i'm going to share, because i feel the need to. there's no special order, they're just alphabetical by song.

the list was put together at random and on instinct. pure.

i love music.

--- i feel like ---
23 - jimmy eat world
a story about a girl - our lady peace
all at once - the fray
beating hearts baby - head automatica
blue and yellow - the used
bonnie tyler shakedown...24k - hellogoodbye
brace - augustana
broken - seether (ft. amy lee)
buried alive by love - him
burn - alkaline trio
cemetery drive - my chemical romance
clumsy - our lady peace
days of the pheonix - afi
demolition lovers - my chemical romance
do it for me now - angels & airwaves
emily - from first to last
endlessly, she said - afi
excuse me mr. - no doubt
the fantasy - 30 seconds to mars
the first single - the format
the fragile - nine inch nails
the gift - angels & airwaves
here's everything i've always wanted to say - jamisonparker
hero/heroine - boys like girls
honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us - my chemical romance
how to save a life - the fray
i'm ready - jack's mannequin
i can't take it - tegan and sara
if you believe - our lady peace
iris (acoustic ver.) - goo goo dolls
the last sunrise - aiden
lazy eye - silversun pickups
lindsay quit lollygagging - chiodos
love song - anberlin
the love song - marilyn manson
makedamnsure - taking back sunday
morningstar - afi
munich - editors
nightingale - saves the day
not enough - our lady peace
numb/encore - linkin park and jay-z
pain - jimmy eat world
potato girl - our lady peace
right here in my arms - him
so contagious - acceptance
so much - the spill canvas
sorry - our lady peace
stay where i can see you - the starting line
the suffering - coheed & cambria
take cover - acceptance
this is how i disappear- my chemical romance
tolovesomebody - billy corgan
we're in this together - nine inch nails
what's said is done - scary kids scaring kids

enjoy.


xoxo.m

.a story about a girl.

it's 630 in the morning. why is it, that when i crash, i wake up at the weirdest times? i wish i didn't. i think i know why though. i think it's just subconscious. but anyway, my itunes was up when i came over to my computer, and i saw this song on there.

i've been a huge fan of Our Lady Peace for forever, and this song, A Story About A Girl, is one of my favorite songs ever, ever, ever. it was when the CD came out and has been ever since. it's just perfect in all the ways that a song can be perfect, so i decided to share. if you'd like me to send you the song let me know and i will gladly do so.

and right now i feel like listening to it over and over and over. so that's what i'm going to do while i try to fall back asleep.

---

suddenly i'm something i'm not
i'm something that you bought
was it something i said, my friend
little girl are you tripping on this
are you tripping all over it
you better come up for air

a story about a girl
a story about the world

are you waking up slowly
nothing but lonely
are you waking up
holding, holding your breath
are you looking for something
i promise you one thing
i promise i'll always, always be there

baby girl stand up and fight
this is not some paradise
this is just where we live
finally you think you're all right
then it eats you up alive
you better get used to it

a story about a girl
a story about the world

are you waking up slowly
nothing but lonely
are you waking up
holding, holding your breath
are you looking for something
i promise you one thing
i promise i'll always, always be there

with all my faith
with all my heart
and all those simple things you are

i know you're stuck inside your head
your low, you better get used to it
and i know the feeling has to end
we all struggle, it sucks you in again
and your lust, it can't make any sense
this world, it tears you limb from limb
in your world you're nothing but the best

are you waking up slowly
nothing but lonely
are you waking up
holding, holding your breath
are you looking for something
i promise you one thing
i promise i'll always, always be there

with all my faith
and all my heart
and all those simple things
you are

"a story about a girl" [our lady peace]

---


xoxo.m

.well i'm ready.

so here i am, back in athens.

and it feels a lot better here now. especially after living out of a suitcase for the past month.

although it was worth it. great class. great internship (who want me back, even though i don't want to go. and they paid me!). amazing times at home. new year's eve in new york city with my cloops. there were some bumps and it wasn't perfect, but overall, not much could've made it better.

highlights from the city: our luck in finding a parking spot. and $40 on the ground. coffee with famous people at the news bar. coffee at aroma. shopping in soho. buddhas in chinatown. fozen hot chocolate aka nirvana in a glass at serendipity. da nico's. yaffa, tiramisu and adrienne. lunch with david and internship opps. more shopping on st. mark's. trash and jimmy. and tons more that i'll think about in approximately five minutes.

now after a long day of driving and a long night of unpacking it's back to the usual grind - classes, speakeasy and work. and it feels good after a month of constant moving. there's definitely something to be said for stability and consistency.

today was long after being exhausted and not getting much sleep. class 9-1030, errands and a yummy lunch at bagel street, then class again from 1-2 and 2-4. then laundry. ugh.

classes should be good though. this quarter i have an online journalism seminar, history of the middle east, myth & symbolism and graphics. i've had all but graphics, and so far there's a lot of reading. at least it's going to be interesting reading. i hope.

gosh, there are so many things running through my head. maybe it's not the best time to be writing a blog. i'm having trouble organizing my thoughts. i think i'm going to just get back to watching "six feet under," which has become my new obsession.

i hope everyone has a happy and beautiful new year.


xoxo.m

.wake up and step outside your box.

i'm trying to keep myself awake. i'm not doing very good. my eyes keep drooping. it's been a looong day.

lunch with jess. shopping with alison. serendipity with my cloops (after an almost 5-hour wait! but it was SO worth it. i found nirvana in a glass.), dinner at the california pizza kitchen, then rented some movies.

we just watched little miss sunshine and it was one of the best movies i've seen in a long time. if you haven't seen it yet please, please, please watch it. i don't think i've talked to a single person who's seen who hasn't liked it. it's beautiful.

okay, my eyes really are shutting. and i'll start to type random things that i won't remember typing in the morning. like i do with my religion papers when i've procrastinated too long.

goodnight, new york.

when you're happy, the whole world is new york

xoxo.m

.how does it feel.

i could be having a string of the worst days, weeks, hell, even months, and there are some surefire things that will make everything feel okay.

one. my family. in the midst of bad and stressful times they never fail to pick me up. even if for just two days everything disappears, even if they don't purposely do it, they make things better, just by being able to make me laugh. true, i don't exactly "fit in" with them. but i never fully have, but they love me, so i just sit back and enjoy it. and if i'm feeling down all i have to do is remember uncle rex getting excited about winning the fake portrait of my grandparents, my uncles repeating lines from "a christmas story" with way too much enthusiasm, brother's frequent imitations of people in my family and south park episodes and poker games in which i always lose $10 simply because i enjoy playing.

two. new york city & the cloops. whenever i'm in nyc time just seems to stand still. i love coming here and everything being so familiar. it almost feels like a second (or third or fourth) home. my new york is the village, trash & vaudeville (and jimmy), the starbucks on st. marks, yaffa cafe, da nico's, strand, union sq. in general, ray's pizza and walking around st. marks at midnight. and sharing all that with two of my favorite people in the world.

three. parker. and being just completely happy with him. days when i can't talk to him just aren't the same. i love him so much it hurts. it really physically hurts. to the point where my chest hurts, my heart speeds up and i have a hard time breathing. and i'm not exaggerating. call me crazy, but i can't imagine my life right now without him.


how does it feel to know you're everything i need
the butterflies in my stomach could bring me to my knees
how does it feel to know you're everything i want
i've got a hard time saying this so i'll sing it in a song

oh i adore the way you carry yourself
with the grace of a thousand angels overhead
i love the way the galaxy starts to melt
when we become one

how does it feel when we get locked into a stare
please don't come looking for me when i get lost in the mess of your hair
how do you feel when everything you've known
gets thrown aside, never fear my dear, 'cause we have nothing left to hide

oh i adore the way you carry yourself
with the grace of a thousand angels overhead
i love the way the galaxy starts to melt

hold on to me if you feel your grip getting loose
just know that i'm right next to you
hold on to me if you feel your grip getting loose
just know that i won't let you down

well i'm ready
i am ready
to run away with you
are you ready?
to run away with me

pack your things we can leave today
say our goodbyes and get on the train
say goodbye
just you and i in the sweet unknown
we can just call each other our home

if i had to choose a way to die
it'd be with you
in a goosebump infested embrace

how does it feel?

[so much] THE SPILL CANVAS


thank you to The Spill Canvas, for coming so close to putting into words what i never can. for somehow coming close to putting into words feelings i can never describe, let alone fully understand.

we're not supposed to understand.

we're just supposed to feel.

this is what makes me unconditionally happy. and they've all come along exactly when i've needed them.

the universe tends to unfold exactly as it should.


xoxo.m

.carols.

i should learn to have more faith in christmas. and my family.

.jingle jingle.

i wish i was more in the "christmas spirit." seriously. i can't even believe tomorrow's christmas eve.

i'm too stressed.

i just hope tomorrow makes it magically all better.

the past few days have been very trying and exhausting. very little has actually gone right. my car getting the sunroof smashed has caused all sorts of extra problems and things to worry about. plus i haven't figured out how to get Speakeasy up and running, which is a huge headache. blahhh.

here's to hoping tomorrow is wonderful.

merry christmas everyone.


xoxo.m

.the sharpest lives.

o.m.f.g.

i now have a ticket to see My Chemical Romance in New York City on Feb. 23.

love. and life-changing it will be.

as always.


xoxo.m

.with the love is no other.

tomorrow is my last day at the Dispatch. a little sad, a little relieved.

i just realized that today is dec. 21, which means christmas eve is only three days away! my problem is that i'm definitely not in the christmas spirit, and honestly it kind of sucks. buying presents for people has helped a bit. i'm kind of excited to get home, i think that will drastically improve my mood. well, actually, what would be best is if parker found a way to get home. i honestly wouldn't need anything else from anybody at that point. my happiness would expand to way too many levels.

sometimes i think i might just shut down.

anyway, i just wrote this post to say boo for not being in the holiday spirit. and it's not even snowing. this sucks.


xoxo.m

.it's something i can't get my head around.

so here's my theory on life. if it doesn't make sense i apologize, but i feel like most of what i write on here doesn't make sense, so bear with me.

my theory on life is that it's all about connection. passion. l-o-v-e. lurve, as dane cook likes to say. i don't mean just romantic. i mean all types. whether it be love for family, love for friends, romantic love, caring love, material love, love for a child, a job, a hobby, etc. etc. i think our goal should be to experience as many different types of love as possible, on as many different levels as possible. more than anything, i think this is what defines being human, it defines our experiences as people. we all feel it, give it, desire it, push it away, pretend we feel it and eventually are overcome by it, in some form.

and the love that is even the greatest is the kind you don't force, but the kind you choose to keep when it comes along. the kind that isn't necessarily natural but it feels like it. the kind that you don't feel because you have to or you should or because it's ingrained in you. the kind that you can can't get away from no matter how hard you've tried. and if you walked away from it, there'd be a hole so big you'd never fully recover.

but you can't look for it. because you don't know what to look for. you just have to recognize it when you feel it and do everything you can to make sure you don't let it slip away. it's hard to know, but when you know, well, you know.

the best things come when we're not expecting them. the most amazing memories come from the unplanned.

we can't define it. or force it. we can't take it for granted. we just have to let ourselves experience it in every way possible.

experience love. experience passion. experience life.


xoxo.m








---
good day ANGELS & AIRWAVES

true love is something that comes easy
just one kiss, god i swear i want to...
i heard a pin drop and a nervous heartbeat
have you ever heard me scream i love you

oh i need you now
the earth fell fast asleep
this room is safe and sound
will you lay here with me
and feel it...
---

.all i want for christmas is you.

so ends my first week in Columbus and my first week at the dispatch. and i'm halfway done. i'm not quite sure how i feel about this.

the job is going great. i've gotten a lot more video experience than i originally thought and i'm loving it. the funniest thing is the guy who's teaching me a lot of the video stuff, his dad and mine actually know each other because they both work for the same elevator company. how random is that? anyway, it's been a really great. i'm learning a lot and they've been really impressed with how much i know. yesterday they kept asking me if i really had to go back to school haha. and since i do, my editor also mentioned that they might be able to send me some small projects while i'm at school, and i'd be working on basically a freelance basis. which would be fantastic (not that i have time).

columbus has been pretty fun as well. i mean, i just like the city, and i've been driving around a lot of and finding my way places, which is always satisfying. i also had dinner with one of my dad's friend's family, which was fun. i did way too much talking though. when did i become so outgoing? but every time i get into a situation where people are asking me about all the things i've done and how i've done them, it really makes me reflect, and it makes me so happy with my life i could just burst. i think that's why i end up talking so much. i need a place for all that feeling to go.

then thursday i went to dinner with adam! i haven't seen him in forever and it's been a really long time since i've gotten to just sit and chat with anyone from home. so adam and i were never super close in high school, but i think we have a lot more common ground now that we're both out on our own. since not many of my friends from high school left new middletown, it's hard connecting with them on a certain level, because our experiences are so different, and it's hard to understand one another. so it was nice getting to talk about that with adam. even if his hair was super long :-P

one week gone, which means only one more week until i go home for christmas!!! i love the holidays so much, and i love spending christmas with my family. so this excites me. however, with one week down, i'm also sad, because that's one more week that parker's not here and i'm desperately wishing for him to be. i can't tell you how many times i've thought about calling up the airport in london, or something crazy like that, and just demanding and yelling for them to put him on a flight. although, they might not appreciate that. so it might not help. i just really want him here, and i want him here for christmas more than anyone can even imagine.

so i'm crossing fingers and toes and eyes and whatever else i can do to make sure he's here. soon.

i think i'm going to actually get down to christmas cards right now. not a lot of gift exchanging going on this year (thank god, because meghan's funds are almost nonexistent hah), but christmas cards and homemade stuff are always more fun :)


xoxo.m

.through fortune and fame we fall.

it's almost 7 a.m.

i know, i know. most you know it's pretty much a sin for me to up this early. but...da dada da...i start my job/internship with the Columbus Dispatch today!! i'm super excited, and super motivated, which is why i woke up about 45 minutes ago and haven't been able to go back to sleep.

well, another reason for that is i'm terrified of being late.

saturday night i had a string of very strange dreams, but the last one was the classic "late for the first day of work dream." so, when i actually woke up (and i'm very out of it and disoriented when i first wake up, as most of you also know) i looked at my phone and the time was 9:08 a.m. well, i panicked. i jumped out of bed, put my contacts in, ran around to find my clothes, thinking up excuses to tell the editor, and realized i hadn't brought up my suitcases from the car yet, so i had nothing up there. i was about to start crying.

then i realized it was only sunday.

yes, this really happened. i was cracking up. but it was probably a good thing, it keeps me on my toes.

so yesterday i spent all day exploring columbus. i've been here a fair number of times, but only for one or two days at a time, so i don't know how to get around that well. so i used mapquest and printed out a route for myself. i figured out where the dispatch was, took a break at starbucks, and found out where the nearest target is. which also led me to old navy and barnes 'n' noble (not good). then i tried going out to trader joe's (i'm in desperate need of food haha), but ended up taking the wrong way twice, and it was dark, so i gave up. i'm going to make another attempt today.

i love exploring cities. so columbus isn't exactly nyc, but it's still fun to walk/drive aroud and learn how to get places.

well, i should probably get up and get ready. i'm going to leave super early, just to be safe!

wish me luck!


xoxo.m

.navigator.

but sometimes you just have to do whatever it takes to get you by. and that has to be enough for now.


xoxo.m

.compass.

it's not enough.


xoxo.m

.watch the waves crash over me.

sometimes i feel really confused.

but i feel so sure.

any confusion, any doubt, any anger or concern - it's artificial. temporary. imagined. it never lasts a fraction of the time than the underlying happiness, passion, and intensity lasts.

sometimes in our weakness we let the artificial overcome what's real, the things that make us randomly stop and catch our breaths, when we didn't even know we were thinking about them.

and maybe i'm finally starting to understand that. it's learning how to peel back the layers that build in the midst of confusion and uncertainty and fear. to know what is at the core, and be confident that it's always there.

feelings don't ever really die. we just lose them. and forget how to feel them. people never really die, we lose them. and then we forget how to see them.

or maybe we never take the time to learn in the first place.

it's because we're human. the universe never intended any of us to be perfect. or to know what's right all the time. or to know what's right for anyone else. we were never supposed to know where we should be, what we should be doing, who we should be with. we're just not supposed to know what's next all the time. nothing's supposed to be easy.

if it was, none of this would mean anything.

know your rocks. they can be anything you want, but really know them. it makes the layers of grime and mold and dirt easier to deal with. and easier to peel off and wash away.

i'm not making any sense.


xoxo.m





---
in regards to myself UNDEROATH

you're staring truth in the face
so come on down
what are you so afraid of?

you're busy living now, aren't you?
you're busy making vows
you're coming unglued

time is shorter than you know
i know the light is blinding to the naked eye
so why don't you take steps away from being alone?
i swear, it's not too late for you

it's all worth reaching for
the hands will pull you out

wake up and step outside of your box
---

.why can't we turn those miles into inches.

i'm scared.

and i need to stop being dumb.

but athens is making that very difficult.

plus, i have time working against me.

and precedents.

and the fact that no one can control their thoughts. or hopes.

i talked to lizzle last night. at least i'm not alone in this.

oh, and if you've never seen 40-Year-Old Virgin you should probably go watch it now.

it's time for me to get my lazy ass out of bed.


xoxo.m

.hidden in the glitter is the real thing.

i have to say, i've never actually been in athens during break. and as expected, it's dead here. i mean there's no one here. it's so weird to be in my apartment and not hear that insanely annoying beat coming from the apartment below us every night (not that i miss it), seeing all the empty parking lots and when walking down the street barely pass anyone who actually looks like they might be a college student.

i'm still associating athens with not-so-good feelings. so even though i have nothing going on, except working a few days, i still have a harder time dealing with things. it's amazing how much your environment can affect your mood. i can't wait until this week is over, then the really fun part of my break starts.

athens 11.29-12.8 [CAR class, M-F, 9 a.m.-5 p.m.]
columbus12.9-12.22 [interning @ the Columbus Dispatch]
home 12.23-12.26 [CHRISTMAS!!!]
new york city 12.27-1.2 [New Year's :-)]

so it'll be a crazy break, true story. not as relaxing as i was maybe hoping for. but it's going to be fun. i'm estatic for this internship, especially since i'll actually be getting paid! *shock*

i know i sound all over the place, considering how i was just complaining that i don't really want to be here right now, but it's the holidays. it's hard to be in a bad mood. i think i'm just not happy that i'm here in athens by myself. well, liz is here. so that makes me happy. but i think it's because i'm living by myself right now. i'm not used to that, and i'm not sure i like it.

i decided this weekend i'm just going to spend as much time as i can with liz and throw myself into this speakeasy redesign, which, by the way, we just decided to do "in house." we're insane, but i think it will be much better this way *crosses fingers*

and if i get really bored, there's always myspace surveys :-P

on another note - concerts! i have a few planned for next year already. if anyone else is interested in joining, let me know!

AFI 2.9 @ Newport [Columbus, OH]
Taste of Chaos 3.18 @ Hara Arena [Dayton, OH] - the Used, 30STM, Chiodos, Aiden, etc.
Anti-Flag 4.20 @ Bogart's [Cincinnati, OH]

eeeee just looking at that list makes me super excited. seeing AFI, 30STM and Aiden again. and seeing anti-flag, chiodos and the Used for the first time.

the used. oh my god. i will die. <3


so yeah, call, comment, e-mail me, message me, if you're interested :)

gosh, it's so freakin' windy outside. the sky is gray. the trees are dead. i wish it would just get cold and snow already. at least the snow's pretty.

oh, and one more beef. when i returned to athens i got our electric bill for the month. you will not believe this: $131!!!!! for one month! i'm assuming it's because of the heat, but c'mon. that's just ridiculous. what college student has that kind of money? blahhh, i need to figure something out.

$131. baby jesus. that kills me. it's almost laughable.

alright, i've wasted enough time. i'm peacing out.


xoxo.m





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the crows are coming for us FROM FIRST TO LAST

you walk on water
you sing that lovely tune
you walk on water

always knew what you were

the crows are coming for us
let 'em live, let 'em live
the crows are hungry for us
let 'em live, let 'em live
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