.ashes to ashes, we all fall down.

week 9 is almost over. well I said hey, hey hallelujah. come on sing the praise. i came into this quarter thinking, "hey, this is going to be easier. i'm not involved with as many things and no more math and science classes to take - i'm pretty much taking whatever i want right now." well baby jesus, that just hasn't been the case. starting around about, let's say, week 4, i had the week from hell. seriously. i mean ever since classes started i pretty much go nonstop every day, but before week 4 leah and i were making dinners at our apartment, my room was relatively clean, i spoke to my parents more often, and i was sleeping at 6 hours a night.

but week 4 came and everything seemed to amplify. all of a sudden i felt like there was more homework and studying, even though i really only had one traditional midterm, and more errands and mundane things to take care of. and i said to myself again, "hey, it's just one week. next week will be better." and again i was WRONG. i hate being wrong.

yep, every week since week 4 i've had the week from hell. it's like a reoccurring nightmare; like being stuck in particularly bad scene from a horror film that keeps looping. just when a week seems like it's going to get better, or there's a day where i think i might actually have some free time, something always comes up. even the weekends aren't so relaxing anymore. example: this week was actually going to be amazing compared to the rest. but then, my computer charger breaks! if you know me at all you know i am particularly attached to my computer. admittedly way more than i should be. buddha would not be proud. but such is the case, i freaked out. i don't freak out often, but when you take away my computer, i will panic. there are several reasons why, but for about three or four days i was in a constant state of hurt and stress and getting about two to three hours of sleep each night. when i came back from class today and leah told me my charger had come, i was estatic beyond belief. it was almost as exciting as when i realized Hoffa's had gotten the black parade in a day early. almost.

i'm prepared for next week to be just as horrible. this weekend i'll be in columbus for a blood brothers concert (wheee!) and doing more interviews with voters about the elections next week, plus a speakeasy social. all fun, but keeping me busy. then it'll be getting final projects together and writing final papers and such, and getting speakeasy set up for the winter. although, i'm actually looking forward to finals week, because i might actually have some time to myself. does anyone else think that's a little backwards?

plus, i'm ready for some time at home. i miss my family like whoa, and i miss my puppy, and i miss sleeping.

xoxo.m


ps. i HATE instant messenger sometimes :-(




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house of wolves MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE

well, i know a thing about contrition
because i got enough to spare
and i'll be granting your permission
cause you haven't got a prayer.
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