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keep your eye on this: TheScoop08

i applied to be a writer of sorts. of something. this is what i've been waiting to happen for the past two and a half years.

finally.

and then i realized [insert life lesson].

playing with formulas and using what's already been done as your guide, is the best path to finding your own, original voice.

i love the common language project.

between these two sites, it makes me feel like things are looking up.


xoxo.m

.i need you so much closer.

you see there's this song that i've avoided listening to because i know what it's about and i knew what it would do to me. but it came on random yesterday and then i put it on a playlist and now i can't stop listening to it even though it makes me cry every time. every single time. damnit.

the atlantic was born today and i'll tell yuo how...
the clouds above opened up and let it out

i was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
when the water filled every hole
and thousands upon thousands made an ocean
making islands where no island should go
oh no

those people were overjoyed; they took their boats
i thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
the rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door have been silenced forever more
the distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
it seems farther than ever before
oh no

i need you so much closer

i need you so much closer
so come on, come on

too much of the time i feel like i'm just going to go crazy. this is all such a contradiction.


xoxo.m

.i've got a hunger twisting my stomach into knots.

it's officially official. i will be interning in new york city this summer with food & wine magazine and mediabistro.com. i'm so so SO excited i can hardly stand it. i will be at food & wine mon-wed and then at mediabistro thur-fri, and covering events some nights and weekends. i also might be doing some freelance work in second life for ouwb, which would be some nice extra cash. my goal this summer is to hopefully make a little money instead of lose it.

of course i'll be in nyc so i'll be doing more than working, i hope :-p a ton of my friends are going to be there this summer. my 21st birthday is at the end of june. yay :) and i do not intend on missing warped this year, especially since coheed is playing!!!

things are looking up in that department for sure.

as for school, i adore my classes this quarter, even if they can be a little exhausting, especially political islam. trying to sort out the problems in the middle east isn't an easy task even for experts. soul of athens is shaping up amazing, and we just finished filming in second life and are waiting for ryan to do the edits. i recruited andy to help us out since he has an account, and it was so fun. i hadn't laughed that hard in a long time.

however, it really started hitting me yesterday that a lot of my good friends will be graduating. and no offense to anyone else, but i'm going to miss lizzle. a lot :( i'm super happy for her about her new job. but i think what i'm scared about is i saw how my friendships from home fell off after i left.

liz has become one of my absolute best friends and i have no intentions of letting us fall out of touch. she's a beautiful, strong, independent, creative, hilarious person to be around, and she's been by my side since the first day i moved to athens. of course, at that time i wasn't sure we were going to become so close. but over the course of three years we did. she's one of those people you just want to stay in your life. and i'm so proud of her and i wish her the best. but athens and ou won't be the same without her.

well i didn't mean to go into this drawn out "tribute to lizzle," but it needed to be done at some point.

i just wish i could come back to see her graduate :( plus, bill freakin' clinton is speaking! how crazy is that? and i could see jules and michael and tina all graduate. ugh, i wish it was just one weekend sooner!!!

hint: someone needs to post this on youtube ;)

but, we still have a few more weeks to go. in that time i have to do a 15-page paper, a 10-page essay, a big design project, finish up soul of athens promotions, along with finishing speakeasy's redesign and planning the party (save the date: thursday, may 31). not to mention have to pack and move out.

it's going to be a little crazy. but when are things not?

ps. next wednesday is journalism day. woo! and i'll be introducing the common language project at 9 a.m. in baker ballroom.check me out.


xoxo.m

.the exodus is here.

this is a song that was written by dan layman. i've seen him perform it three times and i've cried every single time. that was at least a year ago, probably longer, but i still listen to it and have a hard time holding back when i do. there's just something so true and sweet and honest about it, besides it having a personal relevance to my own life.

we could walk tonight, for tonight
i would show you the streetlights
make them laugh for you, cry for you
sing to you in the moonlight

i know i'm not what you'd expected
but trust me, it's the same for me
i'll be right there

forget philosophy, stay with me
substantiate my existence
in your touch i feel something real
i don't need definition

i know i'm not what you'd expected
but trust me, it's the same for me
i'll be right there

i know i'm not what you'd expected
but trust me, it's the same for me
i'll be right there

your smile is innocent, unreasoned
beauty in sweet incoherence
we could walk tonight, for tonight
i would show you the streetlights

i know i'm not what you'd expected
but trust me, it's the same for me
i'll be right there

for some reason i just feel like listening to this on repeat tonight. i really hate sleeping alone. i might move out the couch tonight, just for a change of venue.


xoxo.m

.face step, let down.

someone will always rain on your parade. even if it's the person you least expect to do so. the key is no matter how much their opinion means to you, don't let them do it. if you know you're doing the right thing then you can't let it matter.

there will be others cheering you on. and cherish those people more than anything.

that's all.


xoxo.m



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run quick, they're behind us
didn't think we'd ever make it
this close to safety in one piece
now you wanna kill me in the act of what could maybe
save us from sleep and what we are

good eye, sniper
now i shoot, you run

a favor house atlantic | COHEED & CAMBRIA
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.the world is trembling.

this sucks. i've had both a bird (the third one this year) and a mouse in my apartment in the past week. i'm about to go buy traps to catch this mouse. i feel disgusting and itchy all over. plus it's super hot in my apartment and we don't have air. ew ew ew.

i'm kind of afraid to leave my room. and i just hope that the mouse can't get under my door.

the day started out so good. and was going to end good - i got some work done, got some cold stone, was ready to write a little. then i see the mouse scurrying along behind the tv stand.

go figure.

well i'm out of here. and i'll be back soon trying to catch this thing.


xoxo.m