.take me back to your bed.

do you ever notice that just when you're ready to close down shop for the night, everything seems to take longer. you're trying to x-out of all your browser windows, put up an away, and you can't leave the computer until it's just right.

maybe it's just me that's that compulsive (somehow i doubt it), but it takes so much longer. you're computer randomly freezes up, for no apparent reason. you only have three tabs open in firefox - the first three are the ones you always have open, the ones you live your life by. one's probably your e-mail. and one's the site you look at every day. the extra one, the one you're trying to close, is that one you visit when you think you have free time (but you really don't).

why does it always feel like i have more free time at night? i think it's because i'm really just prolonging the attempt to sleep as much as possible. i know you're not supposed to be jealous of anyone, but sometimes i wish i was one of those people who wasn't scared to go to bed. i'll lay down a while. then get up. find excuses to walk around and check my computer.

it's going to be hours before i fall asleep.

i'm not that tired. i have plenty of energy to wait.

or maybe the universe will take pity on me, and i'll fall asleep right away, without thinking. sometimes i think the universe should take pity on us more often.

on a side note, my parents were here this weekend. and they're great. pretty much. maybe their visit was the universe taking pity on me.

bleh. no use in trying to figure that one out.

sweet dreams.


xoxo.m